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That’s the number “eleven” in Italian/Spanish/French for you. This date has significance to me in a semi-bittersweet way that I feel would just be quite odd to describe for most who know me ‘cept for a few I can count on one hand. Attempting to answer the numerous questions to desired satisfaction about my life and its recent events has proved itself to be somewhat of an exercise in futility (and sometimes frustration) for me and probably rendered me sort of an “enigma”. And that’s likely putting it nicely. Things have just almost always been so complex while I often strive to sit at Walden Pond for a few minutes and just be, not getting pulled into others’ energy.

No matter, it all is what it is and I make do best as I can with all I was left holding, and I feel quite happy and proud of myself that I’ve arrived “here” after everything.  Mostly, I mean emotionally. No words, really, could convey the “*-ness” of my thoughts today though I will try: they were calm and balanced . . . joyful and sad . . . I was amazed and excited about the future– but never lamenting or full of animosity, nor did I want to slap a certain someone . . .  and that was kind of wonderful.

This week zipped by but simultaneously, its pacing made me feel like I was in a time warp bubble of “slo-mo” whereas activity is concerned. To clarify, each day felt like the tempo was incredibly quick, hardly ever giving me time to come up for air, yet the room in which I could accomplish tasks was incredibly small– very frustrating! Work tasks are different and relatively unaffected as they are on a set schedule and get done without fail, but with personal “to do” items the whole of it can seem like running on a treadmill to get things done.

Is it just me or is anyone else experiencing this as well? I just cannot seem to have enough hours in the day to address all I need to on a personal level. Delays or postponements come up, distractions galore, “accidents” or what have you, just enough to make you cry to the Universe, “WTH! Can everyone get w/the program already!” lol Haha. Anyone who knows me will laugh at that little line but the gist of what I intend is there.

If you’re feeling similarly, don’t forget to take some time to carve out a niche in the clock for yourself, even if it’s just a couple of minutes. Those 120 seconds of intent for Self can make a world of difference, at least to me I’ve found it so. I wish inner peace for everyone in these fast-paced days on the road to what might be stress-filled “holiday cheer”.

As I learn more and more throughout my experience of Living, I’ve decided to really do what I want to do and not get sucked into the obligations and emotional manipulations, intentionally before me or not. Time is just much too valuable for me to be putting energy toward something that I’m simply too exhausted for. If that is the case, so be it. I will let the chips fall where they may and hope those in my life will understand. Who knows, maybe they’ll even be inspired to put their time ahead of others’, too? What a win-win for all because sometimes, emotionally, we just need it!

*Oh yeah, I’ve been getting a bunch of hilarious SPAM comments over the past week and approving them. See if you can tell what is what. Hello to all new visitors from across the pond, too